Saturday, January 31, 2009

Day 497...i nEvEr LiStEn...

I'm not a middle of the road kinda gal.  I take my time...worry...before I make a decision...but once I decide to do something...I'm a grab the bull by the horns kinda person...all or nothing...full throttle.  When I was fat...I ate to excess...I never worked out.  Now...I tend to workout in excess.  My addiction didn't go morphed into something else.

I push myself...hard...every day.  I never slow down.  I don't take the time I need to recover from the stress I put my body through daily.  I feel like rest is for wimps...but I know that rest (in the right amount) is for smart people that don't want to injure and over train their bodies.

I have been feeling strong...making gains...but today I feel worn out...broken...used up.  I tried to workout, but my body just wouldn't allow it. scares me not to workout, so I "compromised" with my body.  I put away the heavy weight and decided on an easy 3 mile run.  In the shape I'm in...there was nothing easy about it!  It was awful and slow and extremely painful from start to finish.  I'm glad that I did something because then I won't mentally beat myself up all day...but I really wish I could learn to listen to my body when it tells me to slow take a rest.


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