the pain diaries: Day 484...fOrGiVe mE...

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Day 484...fOrGiVe mE...

"Lord, I apologize for that right there, and please be with the starvin' pygmies down there in New Guinea, Amen," ~Larry the Cable Guy

Ok...sometimes I screw up...I will say that eventhough I screw up...I have NO PROBLEM admitting when I'm wrong or when I've made a mistake...and saying "sorry" is really important to me...

To the people that are IN my life...my friends from various aspects of my life...and my family...it may seem that I am really open to new people...that I just "spill my guts"...and let everybody right IN. Not so. I am VERY skeptical of most people I meet. I'm very cynical and I always expect the worst so that I'm not disappointed...I know...kinda weird. I always say that I have amazing intuition and I have learned to follow "my gut" over the years and it hardly ever steers me wrong. Every now and then...I'm wrong about a person. So, I feel the need to apologize to anyone that may read AND to the person that I was wrong about. Eventhough he will never see this...it will make me feel better. I could've just gone back and erased what I had written, but that wouldn't be honest or true to this process. I mean what I say at the moment I type it...it's just sometimes I change my mind later on.

Yesterday, I went on and on about how this guy that was visiting the gym was driving me crazy...and while I STILL find him to be a little obsessed with Crossfit...I shouldn't have been so quick to judge and dislike him. I don't even know him. You can only imagine how bad I felt when I looked at the gym website and this guy had left a comment "THANKING" me and Jared for welcoming him and giving him some extra instruction. I felt...bad...like a jerk...like a gossipy, judgmental bee-yotch when I read that. Ugh...why am I so flawed?

It's funny..I can say this because I have told them both about this in person... ("Shorty" will find this amusing) I really like R and B (the dynamic duo)...I think they are great guys! They are strong and funny and I always enjoy being around them...BUUUUT...I did NOT like them the first time I met them. In retrospect, I was feeling intimidated...but at the time...I convinced myself that they were annoying and I was determined NOT to like them. It only took a few visits for me to COMPLETELY change my mind. So this is not the first time I've judged too quickly. Please forgive me...I'll try hard to be better!

Soooo...on to the workout today...J texted me this morning to tell me that he, and "the guy visiting" and a few of the firefighters we now were going to the gym to do a workout called "The Filthy Fifty". He invited me to join them, and of course...I COULDN'T RESIST! "The Filthy Fifty" is so bad...brutal...so hard, but it is actually one of my favorite Crossfit WODs. We were all feeling nervous...feeling "butterflies" before we started. The anticipation was INTENSE. We all struggled through, and it was the most intense "50" I've ever done, because normally I am alone...it's easy to stop when you are alone. This time I didn't want to look like a wussy in front of the boys. I used the same weight for KB Swings and Push Presses...I had to use less (16 lbs) on the Wall Balls because the 20 lbers were in use. It was so much different doing it with other people. Now...10 hours later...I'm already getting sore, but I'm glad they invited me up today.

"FILTHY FIFTY"
50 BOX JUMPS (24 IN)
50 JUMPING PULLUPS
50 KB SWINGS (35 LBS)
50 LUNGE STEPS
50 PUSH PRESS (45 LBS)
50 GHD BACK EXT
50 WALL BALL (16 LB DYNAMAX)
50 BURPEES
50 TUCK JUMPS (SUB FOR DOUBLE UNDERS)
TIME: 37:15

2 comments:

Shorty said...: Yep, I got a kick out of your R & B note. I can relate...I don't always like them as a pair either, and fortunately met B by himself during our first encounter with each other. Some days they are just on a roll and too much to digest. Those days are when they are much better to swallow when they are separated. Kind of like little kids. I guess that can be said for a lot of male best friend pairs. Are we girls like that, annoying to the opposite sex when we hang out with our BFF's? Geeze, I hope not!

Glad you got in one of your fave workouts! I'm sure you kicked butt!; January 16, 2009 at 7:42 AM
MC said...: Ha ha! Actually...now that I know them...I think they are hilarious together...but I don't have to live with em...ha ha...

Guys call each other names and act like kids together and we probably come off as shallow and whiney...who knows! Anyways, gotta love em...they keep life interesting!; January 16, 2009 at 7:59 AM

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..............WHY?...............

This is my training log...my "workout diary" if you will. It is mostly for ME, but if it motivates someone else, that's great too! I write everday as a way of being accountable to myself. It's a way to track my progress, correct my mistakes, and a way to look back and view my day to day struggle to continue to work towards being the best possible version of myself. Sometimes, I am tired or lonely or unmotivated. Sometimes, I am "powerful beyond measure". Sometimes it is fun...easy. Other times, it is almost unbearable. I use to have my trainers to push me...but NOW I am on my own.

QUOTES THAT INSPIRE ME TO PUSH HARDER...GO FASTER...AND TRAIN LONGER

"SOME DEFINE OBSESSION AS NEGATIVE. I SAY IT'S HOW YOU GET THINGS DONE."

-MARK TWIGHT

"PAIN IS TEMPORARY. IT MAY LAST A MINUTE, OR AN HOUR, OR A DAY, OR A YEAR, BUT EVENTUALLY IT WILL SUBSIDE AND SOMETHING ELSE TAKES IT'S PLACE. IF I QUIT HOWEVER, IT LASTS FOREVER."

-LANCE ARMSTRONG

"TO BE TRANSFORMED BY EFFORT, ONE MUST DIG DEEP...SURPASS ONE'S EXPECTATIONS OR SELF-IMPOSED LIMITATIONS...RISK FAILURE...BLOW UP, AND 'GET THE FULL DOSE'...IT ALWAYS HURTS YOU GO AS HARD AS YOU CAN."

-MARK TWIGHT-"GYM JONES" WEBSITE

"TO GIVE ANYTHING LESS THAN YOUR BEST IS TO SACRIFICE THE GIFT."

-STEVE PREFONTAINE

“PUNISH YOUR BODY TO PERFECT YOUR SOUL.”

-MARK TWIGHT

“ONLY THOSE WHO WILL RISK GOING TOO FAR CAN POSSIBLY FIND OUT HOW FAR ONE CAN GO.”

-T.S. ELIOTT

"THE BENEFITS OF FITNESS ARE NOT MERELY PHYSICAL. SUCCESSFUL COMPLETION OF A SERIES OF DIFFICULT, SHORT-DURATION, HIGH INTENSITY EFFORTS BUILDS SELF-ASSUREDNESS IN A WAY THAT VERY FEW OTHER ACTIVITIES CAN. TOUGH WORKOUTS THAT PUSH AN INDIVIDUAL TO THE VERY LIMIT OF HIS OR HER CAPACITIES MAY BECOME THE GATEWAY TO HIGHER CONSCIOUSNESS. AND THAT AWARENESS OFTEN LEADS TO CONFIDENCE."

-MARK TWIGHT

"WHEN A PERSON TRAINS ONCE, NOTHING HAPPENS. WHEN A PERSON FORCES HIMSELF TO DO A THING A HUNDRED OR A THOUSAND TIMES, THEN HE CERTAINLY HAS DEVELOPED IN MORE WAYS THAN PHYSICAL. IS IT RAINING? THAT DOESN'T MATTER. AM I TIRED? THAT DOESN'T MATTER EITHER. THEN WILLPOWER WILL BE NO PROBLEM"

-EMIL ZATOPEK

"GIVE IT EVERYTHING AND LET THE CHIPS...OR WHATEVER...FALL WHERE THEY MAY. IT WON'T EVER GET EASIER, BUT YOU MIGHT GO FASTER, OR LAST LONGER."

-MARK TWIGHT

“A LOT OF PEOPLE RUN A RACE TO SEE WHO IS FASTEST. I RUN TO SEE WHO HAS THE MOST GUTS WHO CAN PUNISH HIMSELF INTO EXHAUSTING PACE, AND THEN AT THE END, PUNISH HIMSELF EVEN MORE. NOBODY IS GOING TO WIN A 5,000METER RACE AFTER RUNNING AN EASY 2 MILES. NOT WITH ME. IF I LOSE FORCING THE PACE ALL THE WAY, WELL, AT LEAST I CAN LIVE WITH MYSELF.“

-STEVE PREFONTAINE

“SUFFERING PROVIDES THE OPPORTUNITY TO EXERCISE WILL AND DEVELOP GRIT… THE MIND AND BODY ADAPT TO BOTH COMFORT AND DEPRIVATION… RELISH THE CHALLENGE OF OVERCOMING DIFFICULTIES THAT WOULD CRUSH ORDINARY MEN... LEARN TO SUFFER.”

-MARK TWIGHT – excerpts from "Extreme Alpinism - Climbing Light, Fast and High"

“SOMETIMES IF YOU WANT TO BE A WINNER, YOU HAVE TO BE WILLING TO BEAR THE SCARS FROM THE FIGHT.”

-PETRA SALVAJE

'EACH OF US GIVES WHAT WE ARE ABLE AND, MORE IMPORTANTLY, WILLING TO GIVE TO LIFE. HOW WE REACT WHEN OUR CAPACITY AND WILL FALL SHORT OF OUR EXPECTATIONS DETERMINES HOW WE VIEW OURSELVES...".

-MARK TWIGHT~"GYM JONES" website