the pain diaries: Day 342...stOp tHe miSeRy wAgOn! i wAnT oFF!...

Saturday, August 23, 2008

Day 342...stOp tHe miSeRy wAgOn! i wAnT oFF!...

Do you ever feel that way?...sick of your life? Some days are just like that...you wake up...you want to have a good day...but stuff happens and it sets the tone for the rest of your day. Next thing you know...you're taking a ride on what I like to call "the misery wagon"...and you're hatin life.

I got up this morning and a series of events happened that...well for the lack of a more intelligent word...sucked. I like to workout with other people. I'm very motivated when I do, because I want to beat whoever it is that I'm with. I was excited to go to the park and do stuff I like...flipping tires...draggin heavy stuff around. Plus, A was training K and I like him. He's fun to workout with. I started driving to the park...the park VERY far away...and before I knew it...I was lost. I couldn't remember the directions and I called A like a million times and he never answered. I was about ready to rip my hair out, so after using lots of gas and all my patience...I gave up and headed back the way I came...disappointed and frustrated and on the verge of tears.

I went up to the gym...unlocked the door...and got ready to workout...ALONE. I did the WOD that J had his classes do yesterday. It was hard. I wished I had someone there to watch my form on the push jerks. I wondered if I was staying "in line". I was so tired when I was through. I hoped those lifts would get me out of my funk...but it was no use...I stayed right where I was...on the misery wagon. I went to the park...4 and a half miles should work it out...no dice! After a ridiculous amount of phone tag...A got me on the phone.

He wasn't any happier than I was. Crap!..still on the misery wagon...except now I'm not alone. He said I didn't confirm that I was coming to the park. I explained that I thought asking for directions yesterday was a pretty good confirmation. He didn't agree. I wasn't really mad at him...I was really frustrated with the sequence of events...and it wasn't getting any better. I went to Chick Fil A...to eat bad...more misery. I traded my kids meal toy for an ice cream cone...I said I was eating bad!...and the cute blonde gave me the tiniest, most pitiful cone you have EVER seen. The top wasn't even covered with ice cream. It seriously looked like a joke...it wasn't. I wanted to make a smart comment like..."Hey! Have a little ice cream with your cone!". I started to add it to my collection of crappy events, but I made a decision.

The fact is...NO ONE put me on the misery wagon. I let things get to me and I stepped on...and stayed on by choice. I decided that being miserable wasn't going to help my day...and I realized that no one was going to rescue me from my misery or take my hand and help me out...so I stopped the misery wagon and I got off. It felt good. The workout was done...I was no longer lost...and that pitiful excuse of an ice cream cone meant less guilt over eating it later. I feel relieved now. I'm so glad to be off the wagon.

WARMUP
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JUMPING JACKS
DYNAMIC STRETCHING

WORKOUT
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10 HANG POWER CLEANS (65 LBS)
10 FRONT SQUATS (65 LBS)
10 PUSH JERKS (65 LBS)
5 ROUNDS (28:07)

CARDIO
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4.5 MILE WALK/RUN

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..............WHY?...............

This is my training log...my "workout diary" if you will. It is mostly for ME, but if it motivates someone else, that's great too! I write everday as a way of being accountable to myself. It's a way to track my progress, correct my mistakes, and a way to look back and view my day to day struggle to continue to work towards being the best possible version of myself. Sometimes, I am tired or lonely or unmotivated. Sometimes, I am "powerful beyond measure". Sometimes it is fun...easy. Other times, it is almost unbearable. I use to have my trainers to push me...but NOW I am on my own.

QUOTES THAT INSPIRE ME TO PUSH HARDER...GO FASTER...AND TRAIN LONGER

"SOME DEFINE OBSESSION AS NEGATIVE. I SAY IT'S HOW YOU GET THINGS DONE."

-MARK TWIGHT

"PAIN IS TEMPORARY. IT MAY LAST A MINUTE, OR AN HOUR, OR A DAY, OR A YEAR, BUT EVENTUALLY IT WILL SUBSIDE AND SOMETHING ELSE TAKES IT'S PLACE. IF I QUIT HOWEVER, IT LASTS FOREVER."

-LANCE ARMSTRONG

"TO BE TRANSFORMED BY EFFORT, ONE MUST DIG DEEP...SURPASS ONE'S EXPECTATIONS OR SELF-IMPOSED LIMITATIONS...RISK FAILURE...BLOW UP, AND 'GET THE FULL DOSE'...IT ALWAYS HURTS YOU GO AS HARD AS YOU CAN."

-MARK TWIGHT-"GYM JONES" WEBSITE

"TO GIVE ANYTHING LESS THAN YOUR BEST IS TO SACRIFICE THE GIFT."

-STEVE PREFONTAINE

“PUNISH YOUR BODY TO PERFECT YOUR SOUL.”

-MARK TWIGHT

“ONLY THOSE WHO WILL RISK GOING TOO FAR CAN POSSIBLY FIND OUT HOW FAR ONE CAN GO.”

-T.S. ELIOTT

"THE BENEFITS OF FITNESS ARE NOT MERELY PHYSICAL. SUCCESSFUL COMPLETION OF A SERIES OF DIFFICULT, SHORT-DURATION, HIGH INTENSITY EFFORTS BUILDS SELF-ASSUREDNESS IN A WAY THAT VERY FEW OTHER ACTIVITIES CAN. TOUGH WORKOUTS THAT PUSH AN INDIVIDUAL TO THE VERY LIMIT OF HIS OR HER CAPACITIES MAY BECOME THE GATEWAY TO HIGHER CONSCIOUSNESS. AND THAT AWARENESS OFTEN LEADS TO CONFIDENCE."

-MARK TWIGHT

"WHEN A PERSON TRAINS ONCE, NOTHING HAPPENS. WHEN A PERSON FORCES HIMSELF TO DO A THING A HUNDRED OR A THOUSAND TIMES, THEN HE CERTAINLY HAS DEVELOPED IN MORE WAYS THAN PHYSICAL. IS IT RAINING? THAT DOESN'T MATTER. AM I TIRED? THAT DOESN'T MATTER EITHER. THEN WILLPOWER WILL BE NO PROBLEM"

-EMIL ZATOPEK

"GIVE IT EVERYTHING AND LET THE CHIPS...OR WHATEVER...FALL WHERE THEY MAY. IT WON'T EVER GET EASIER, BUT YOU MIGHT GO FASTER, OR LAST LONGER."

-MARK TWIGHT

“A LOT OF PEOPLE RUN A RACE TO SEE WHO IS FASTEST. I RUN TO SEE WHO HAS THE MOST GUTS WHO CAN PUNISH HIMSELF INTO EXHAUSTING PACE, AND THEN AT THE END, PUNISH HIMSELF EVEN MORE. NOBODY IS GOING TO WIN A 5,000METER RACE AFTER RUNNING AN EASY 2 MILES. NOT WITH ME. IF I LOSE FORCING THE PACE ALL THE WAY, WELL, AT LEAST I CAN LIVE WITH MYSELF.“

-STEVE PREFONTAINE

“SUFFERING PROVIDES THE OPPORTUNITY TO EXERCISE WILL AND DEVELOP GRIT… THE MIND AND BODY ADAPT TO BOTH COMFORT AND DEPRIVATION… RELISH THE CHALLENGE OF OVERCOMING DIFFICULTIES THAT WOULD CRUSH ORDINARY MEN... LEARN TO SUFFER.”

-MARK TWIGHT – excerpts from "Extreme Alpinism - Climbing Light, Fast and High"

“SOMETIMES IF YOU WANT TO BE A WINNER, YOU HAVE TO BE WILLING TO BEAR THE SCARS FROM THE FIGHT.”

-PETRA SALVAJE

'EACH OF US GIVES WHAT WE ARE ABLE AND, MORE IMPORTANTLY, WILLING TO GIVE TO LIFE. HOW WE REACT WHEN OUR CAPACITY AND WILL FALL SHORT OF OUR EXPECTATIONS DETERMINES HOW WE VIEW OURSELVES...".

-MARK TWIGHT~"GYM JONES" website