the pain diaries: Day 202...mY sEcuRiTy bLaNkEt...

Friday, April 4, 2008

Day 202...mY sEcuRiTy bLaNkEt...

So, I said that I was going to come up with my OWN workouts for the next couple of days while J is gone. I said that I was excited to "see what I could do without my boys"...and THEN...I found myself walking into the gym with the book that W made me. It has been very loved and it's obvious when you look closely at it. I realized today that my relationship with my book is a bit like Linus and his blanket. It is MY "security blanket". I love it, because my friend spent many hours making it for me...it reminds me of him...but it also makes me feel safe in some strange way.

I chose one of my favorites. IF it was a Crossfit WOD...I would want it to be called "Marsha". I set up my little circuit area...and warmed up. There was a class going on in the room where I normally "set up", so I had to set up in the corner of the "free weights" room. I knew I would get stares. First, I was the ONLY girl in there...second, those boys have a one track mind. They lift heavy, grunt, and admire themselves in the mirrors. So I'm slamming the ball which always makes me look like a violent psycho beeyotch and I'm swinging my KB and doing box jumps and burpees etc...at a frantic pace because I'm timing myself. I had a goal. Last time I spent 35 minutes on this one. I didn't care if it took me 34 min and 58 sec...I just wanted to beat my previous time. I did. Yea me! So back to the boys...they were staring which I actually appreciate because it puts alot of pressure on me to perform.

One guy...I'll call him "water fountain guy" or WFG for short...because once he made some comment to me at the water fountain...he was paying attention to everything I was doing. I'm on my last round..all I have left is 20 burpees and a quarter mile run when he moves in. He asked if I would "help" him. I was dazed and hurting and glad to stop the clock for a minute...so I agreed. He wanted me to lay a 45LB plate on his lap while he did tricep dips and wait to take it off when he was done. Of course, he took the opportunity to chat. My mind was on one thing and one thing only...FINISHING! As soon as he was done I broke off the chit chat and went right into burpees. After burpees, I did my last run and came back to my little "area" to lay on the floor and recuperate. All of the sudden, I take my towel off my face and he's standing over me with a big white grin and bulging muscles. Then he said, "Well if you're just gonna lay there...do you mind helping me out just one more time?" (smile-wink). I did and I now know that he's driving to Wichita today...he was in Cancun for the past week and did nothing but drink for 5 days...he has a boat...etc. He pulled out all the stops. He even complimented the fact that I was "hittin it hard over there!"...I'll take that! I don't think he was really flirting...he's a late 20's beefy "cool" guy with big white teeth and tan muscles...what would he want with my tired old butt?...really! He probably just wanted to talk about himself and I was the only one left in the room. HA! Well, it was a nice break...I figured I'd be bored and lonely without J...I hate the silence of working out alone...WFG broke the silence..that's for sure.

My booty was on fire when I left today...maybe because I haven't done weighted squats in forever...dunno...and I certainly got my wish...my abs are pretty darn sore, especially my obliques oddly enough. I worked really hard. I'm so glad that W made that book for me. It really is one of the most thoughtful gifts I've been given...ever...it ranks out right below my music box that I got for my second wedding anniversary (my most favorite sentimental gift that sits on my desk). It's always nice to have that book as a backup...as my security blanket...when I'm unsure...or too lazy to think about what I will do.

WARMUP
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5 MIN ELLIPTICAL AND STRETCHING

WORKOUT
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20 MEDICINE BALL SLAMS (12 LBs)
20 KB SWINGS (35 LBs)
20 BOX JUMPS (22 IN)
20 PUSH PRESS (RXed=2/20LB DBs...I USED THE 45LB BAR SO I COULD GO RIGHT INTO MY SQUATS)
20 BACK SQUATS (45LB BAR)
20 BURPEES (WITH A GOOD LOW PUSHUP AND A JUMP AT THE END)
RUN .25 MILES
3 ROUNDS-TIME=33:52

CARDIO
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20 MIN ON RECUMBENT BIKE (MEDIUM RESISTANCE...2 MIN REG SPEED/ 30 SEC AS FAST AS POSSIBLE...REPEAT)
10 MIN TREADMILL WALK (MY GLUTES WERE CRYING SO I HAD TO SWITCH)
STRETCH

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..............WHY?...............

This is my training log...my "workout diary" if you will. It is mostly for ME, but if it motivates someone else, that's great too! I write everday as a way of being accountable to myself. It's a way to track my progress, correct my mistakes, and a way to look back and view my day to day struggle to continue to work towards being the best possible version of myself. Sometimes, I am tired or lonely or unmotivated. Sometimes, I am "powerful beyond measure". Sometimes it is fun...easy. Other times, it is almost unbearable. I use to have my trainers to push me...but NOW I am on my own.

QUOTES THAT INSPIRE ME TO PUSH HARDER...GO FASTER...AND TRAIN LONGER

"SOME DEFINE OBSESSION AS NEGATIVE. I SAY IT'S HOW YOU GET THINGS DONE."

-MARK TWIGHT

"PAIN IS TEMPORARY. IT MAY LAST A MINUTE, OR AN HOUR, OR A DAY, OR A YEAR, BUT EVENTUALLY IT WILL SUBSIDE AND SOMETHING ELSE TAKES IT'S PLACE. IF I QUIT HOWEVER, IT LASTS FOREVER."

-LANCE ARMSTRONG

"TO BE TRANSFORMED BY EFFORT, ONE MUST DIG DEEP...SURPASS ONE'S EXPECTATIONS OR SELF-IMPOSED LIMITATIONS...RISK FAILURE...BLOW UP, AND 'GET THE FULL DOSE'...IT ALWAYS HURTS YOU GO AS HARD AS YOU CAN."

-MARK TWIGHT-"GYM JONES" WEBSITE

"TO GIVE ANYTHING LESS THAN YOUR BEST IS TO SACRIFICE THE GIFT."

-STEVE PREFONTAINE

“PUNISH YOUR BODY TO PERFECT YOUR SOUL.”

-MARK TWIGHT

“ONLY THOSE WHO WILL RISK GOING TOO FAR CAN POSSIBLY FIND OUT HOW FAR ONE CAN GO.”

-T.S. ELIOTT

"THE BENEFITS OF FITNESS ARE NOT MERELY PHYSICAL. SUCCESSFUL COMPLETION OF A SERIES OF DIFFICULT, SHORT-DURATION, HIGH INTENSITY EFFORTS BUILDS SELF-ASSUREDNESS IN A WAY THAT VERY FEW OTHER ACTIVITIES CAN. TOUGH WORKOUTS THAT PUSH AN INDIVIDUAL TO THE VERY LIMIT OF HIS OR HER CAPACITIES MAY BECOME THE GATEWAY TO HIGHER CONSCIOUSNESS. AND THAT AWARENESS OFTEN LEADS TO CONFIDENCE."

-MARK TWIGHT

"WHEN A PERSON TRAINS ONCE, NOTHING HAPPENS. WHEN A PERSON FORCES HIMSELF TO DO A THING A HUNDRED OR A THOUSAND TIMES, THEN HE CERTAINLY HAS DEVELOPED IN MORE WAYS THAN PHYSICAL. IS IT RAINING? THAT DOESN'T MATTER. AM I TIRED? THAT DOESN'T MATTER EITHER. THEN WILLPOWER WILL BE NO PROBLEM"

-EMIL ZATOPEK

"GIVE IT EVERYTHING AND LET THE CHIPS...OR WHATEVER...FALL WHERE THEY MAY. IT WON'T EVER GET EASIER, BUT YOU MIGHT GO FASTER, OR LAST LONGER."

-MARK TWIGHT

“A LOT OF PEOPLE RUN A RACE TO SEE WHO IS FASTEST. I RUN TO SEE WHO HAS THE MOST GUTS WHO CAN PUNISH HIMSELF INTO EXHAUSTING PACE, AND THEN AT THE END, PUNISH HIMSELF EVEN MORE. NOBODY IS GOING TO WIN A 5,000METER RACE AFTER RUNNING AN EASY 2 MILES. NOT WITH ME. IF I LOSE FORCING THE PACE ALL THE WAY, WELL, AT LEAST I CAN LIVE WITH MYSELF.“

-STEVE PREFONTAINE

“SUFFERING PROVIDES THE OPPORTUNITY TO EXERCISE WILL AND DEVELOP GRIT… THE MIND AND BODY ADAPT TO BOTH COMFORT AND DEPRIVATION… RELISH THE CHALLENGE OF OVERCOMING DIFFICULTIES THAT WOULD CRUSH ORDINARY MEN... LEARN TO SUFFER.”

-MARK TWIGHT – excerpts from "Extreme Alpinism - Climbing Light, Fast and High"

“SOMETIMES IF YOU WANT TO BE A WINNER, YOU HAVE TO BE WILLING TO BEAR THE SCARS FROM THE FIGHT.”

-PETRA SALVAJE

'EACH OF US GIVES WHAT WE ARE ABLE AND, MORE IMPORTANTLY, WILLING TO GIVE TO LIFE. HOW WE REACT WHEN OUR CAPACITY AND WILL FALL SHORT OF OUR EXPECTATIONS DETERMINES HOW WE VIEW OURSELVES...".

-MARK TWIGHT~"GYM JONES" website