Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Day 374...oOpS i DiD iT aGaiN!...

Lately I have been following more of a strength building program and less of a cardio intensive program. I have to say that being an "ex fat girl"...this has been REALLY scary for me. Cardio is my security blanket. When I do lots of cardio...I don't feel fat. At the same time I knew I needed to change things up a bit so when A invited me to train with him in this way...I looked forward to it with nervous excitement. A quit training with me, but I continued what we started by myself...or tried my best anyway. I have not noticed much change aesthetically, but I do feel a little stronger. The program was set up to do 3 weeks of strength training and then to take a week off and just do metabolic conditioning workouts (cardio type stuff) during that week. After the week off...I start over again. This is my week "off" and so today I did a workout that was supposed to be fast paced...high rep...low weight. I was slow...and it nearly killed me. Now I sit here...6 hours later...in pain with ice packs strapped to both knees! My left knee is worse than my right knee...it's KILLIN me. It was really hurtin by about the 20th lunge I did, but did I stop??? NOOOOO. I kept going until I had done the 100 that I had planned to do. I did what I have done so many times before. I ignore my pain and keep going.

Everytime...when I am in this state...when I am miserable...or hurting...or worried...I think to myself..."I'll NEVER do THAT again!"...but time goes by and the memory fades and I do it...again. My 9 yr old daughter caught me putting ice packs on my knees and elevating them. She's becoming quite the little photographer (as you can see by the picture she took). She asked me why I always "hurt" myself...it was hard to explain. I want my girls to have a healthy body image so I don't know how to say, "Mommy is paranoid that she will get fat again." and so...of course I didn't say that. I just told her that I want to be strong...which IS also true. We also talked about the difference in working hard and being sore...and "hurting yourself". I actually think she was relieved...and proud.

WORKOUT
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10 PULL UPS
20 PUSH UPS
30 PUSH PRESSES (55 LBS)
40 RDLs (95 LBS)
50 RING DIPS (BAND ASSISTED)
60 BB BENT ROWS (55 LBS)
70 SDHPs (45 LB BAR)
80 SQUATS
90 "FROGGIES"
100 TRAVELING LUNGES

2 comments:

Shorty said...

Geeze girl! I must say that I'm a bit scared for ya! Definitely take it easy on the knees...they've got to carry you around for quite some time in the future. I hope you are feeling back to yourself in no time flat! I'll give you a ring later to see how you're holding up.
Hang in there,
K

MC said...

Thanks! I'm usually not "down" for long. Ice works wonders, so I'm back at it today MINUS ANY squats or lunges!!! ;)

M